it is one thing to go to another place because it is calling to you. it is another to go to a place because you don’t want to be in the one that you are currently in.
i know because i have tried to do it.
i tried to go to Berlin. i tried to make that happen. and i got thwarted. (most notably by my self.)
my proposal wasn’t truly honest. it was in the sense that i was saying that art here is over and i want to go to the place where it is present and to figure out why. but my proposal was unclear because i wasn’t being truthful with my self about what i was running away from here. and staying here (being here then, being there now), i now know the difference between escaping and following. seeking vs. finding. making things happen vs. allowing them to. running from one’s self vs. facing our true selves.