Most gulls don’t bother to learn more than the simplest facts of flight—how to get from shore to food and back again. For most gulls, it is not flying that matters, but eating. For this gull, though, it was not eating that mattered, but flight. More than anything else, Jonathan Livingston Seagull loved to fly.
This kind of thinking, he found, is not the way to make one’s self popular with other birds. Even his parents were dismayed as Jonathan spent whole days alone, making hundreds of low-level glides, experimenting.
The wind is blowing so hard it feels like I can’t hold on much longer. Even if I do, I can’t be convinced that the tree won’t get blown away itself. My little claws are grasping onto a thin branch as I look down to the depths of where I could fall. In this moment I wonder if it’s worth holding on or if I should just let go…
I’m supposed to be able to fly anyway. But somehow that doesn’t give me the confidence time after time to take the plunge. I remember on one of my trips out East, a Taoist person was spreading virtues of “not doing.” I have to wonder how I can possibly “not do.” If I don’t let go, am I not holding onto things I should let go of? If I let go into a situation that feels dangerous, am I doing what I always do—plunging into risk? The fundamental nature of “not doing” is, in itself, doing something!
on November 21st, i had a rehearsal in my apartment with Sameer Parekh of Falkor Systems and his flying robot, Ary. while getting reading for them to arrive, i found this:
three years ago i put this post-it note on my desk. on that day, i realized why we have dreams.
Sameer invited me to come and be a part of his TED talk! okay, so it’s TEDxSiliconAlley, but it is a step in the direction of so many dreams—speaking at TED, dancing with robots, you know, the usual. no small order, but it helps to reaffirm my deep belief that we can all dream big and make those dreams our reality.
it is one thing to go to another place because it is calling to you. it is another to go to a place because you don’t want to be in the one that you are currently in.
i know because i have tried to do it.
i tried to go to Berlin. i tried to make that happen. and i got thwarted. (most notably by my self.)
my proposal wasn’t truly honest. it was in the sense that i was saying that art here is over and i want to go to the place where it is present and to figure out why. but my proposal was unclear because i wasn’t being truthful with my self about what i was running away from here. and staying here (being here then, being there now), i now know the difference between escaping and following. seeking vs. finding. making things happen vs. allowing them to. running from one’s self vs. facing our true selves.
Most Peaceful, Restful Sleep of this trip – i Slept almost Ten Hours!
Finish Computer Programming Final(ly)!
Virtual Connection with the World Briefly Reestablished
Azoo Waits for me at Breakfast – Good Morning, Friend!
Meet Selk and Ajay from Australia
Reconnecting with Nature
“I came here to connect with Nature, and with my Self.”
Connections between People sharing Energy
Bali Coffee gets better and better
Coffee stays Hot when it Sits in the Sunshine
Little Bali Girl peeks at me through the Café Window, then through the Entrance to my Room
I think about Javanese Puppets and Playing
And so we Play!
Digital Harinezumi Dies a Sudden Death
Luna and i go on a Jungle Mountain Walk
No Idea where i am Being Led
Luna says, “it’s Ok! You with Me. it’s Beautiful!!!”
She uses the words “it’s Beautiful” so many times. it is Beautiful.
We Slide through the Mud and she Teaches me how to Fly
And Find our Way Home…